By: Blonde Two
Good morning. It is 4 a.m. on Sunday morning, I am alone, I am awake and I am righteously angry.
What are you supposed to do when you are angry about something? When you are so enraged that your tears wake you up? When every fibre of your being wants to vilify the perpetrator of the situation?
What are you supposed to do when you see something you have put your heart and soul into, broken for the second time, by the same people? When the harm that was done to you, is repeated to someone you care about? When what you strived to build is blindly bulldozed?
What do you do if a situation is wrong; but you are powerless to change it? If young people have lost something; but you cannot give it back to them? If your values are not shared by those with power?
This morning, across the world, the anger of others will be over far more important issues than mine. They may handle it better or worse than I do; I have none of the answers.
But what will I do about my anger? Allowing it to wake me up at 4 a.m. is clearly not healthy. It is 5 a.m. now and some of the doing has been done. Writing is my catharsis, a walk on Dartmoor will help, as will some family time. Sometimes, when you have done your absolute best, all that remains for you to do is admit defeat; and then turn around and start again.
Admit defeat: NEVER …
Ah, a passionate response to something-or-other! What does it result in – tears, sleeplessness, anger? Oh dear. Are these effective in altering the situation? Perhaps not, and thus it may continue. Frustrating huh? Perhaps all-absorbing?
Sometimes it is better to step back and view a situation in a wider context – look at it from a different angle than the one immediately before your blurry eyes. You may see a route or an aspect you hadn’t seen before, and it could be a beneficial one.
It can also be an advantage, and healthy, to share a problem and get other opinion or suggestions about it. Ever watch the movie Erin Brockovitch? Sometimes individual distress is better shared and the unjust cause of it is better being made more widely known because the unity of response that may result is a bigger hammer to crack a nut with. Some days you can’t change the world on your own, no matter how passionate you are to do so. Just occasionally too, the person who sees the way to resolve an issue simply needs to be aware of it, but isn’t you.
Of course, not everything can be changed as we’d like. Bit of a bitch, that one… Then again, if your cause of upset is known, and righteous, the more people who know about it the more likely it is that someone will buy you a half of shandy in sympathy. Glass half full, right?
Carry on the good work as well as you can, maybe in a different way, and don’t forget that not everyone is against you.
Wise words Rich. Anger has subsided to a gentle, manageable rumbling.